mom please stop talking to me

 im trying to do something...

yes, what would i give to get my own space where i can do most of my things uninterrupted and not think about anyone whatsoever because it's just ME

i need solitude ugh

Another Life

Feeling internal energies exploding

In the most-pleasant shards of light

All of your being shall be twine

And unravel the threads of you

Crashing to dust as slices 

of total brightness and time stop

time must have a stop 

and shadows lay banished 

For divine love and joy will prosper 

in the vessel of thy name

Realize that all was to time

The present and which it is bound

So in our final reasonings

Nought shall be known as the answer 

To find heaven in oblivion

Can be the new beginning

memes on YouTube make me feel braindead

these things are fucking dumb lmao wtf

fuck memes 

Remember the Past

Your answer lies here: https://open.spotify.com/track/5pWsoHqFAowE3VgklFarOr?si=NW9sOzghQTGw_3qvLoaweA

An Observation of Self

an anxiety attack. or dissociation. your perspective seems to have a wider field of vision. you don't feel like you are moving yet you are. you're not in control. you don't emote or feel anything. it happens because of anxiety. first you feel sad and worthless. then you become avoidant of anyone. my heart rate escalates. you need to leave. now. then everything starts spinning. your breathing becomes labored. 

The Answer

dreamcorp - your life flashing before your eyes

https://open.spotify.com/track/6pGwZsj5Enfxl0rRNHCEGY?si=Gu394ZUCQO--G09dIr-ZDA

Look into yourself. Use the space and mind to reflect, to process life. 

It Makes Sense

the transition back to civilian life. you must make new priorities now. organize your life. the structure and pattern is gone. time to construct a new one. dedicate certain periods of the day to do certain things. set reminders and alarms. keep a journal. writing is better than electronic perhaps? remember your journal. it worked then, it can work now.